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I'm a happy go lucky free spirited hopeless romantic! Far from being perfect but I love to be in love and love to be loved! I try to do right by others and myself. I just want to live a Happy life full of Love and create wonderful memories =)

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

You know what I mean?

Do you ever get asked that question?

"You know what I mean?"

I feel like that's a common question I'm asked during massage sessions. It usually has nothing to do with the persons body or the massage. Majority of the time its something personal that they're assuming I can relate too.

My first massage client of the day was an older woman, she was talking on the phone with her daughter as I waited for her to get on my table. When we started she starts to tell me how guilty she's feeling because her teenage daughter is at home sick while she is here on the island on a mini vacation. I tell her that I'm sure her daughter would want her to enjoy her time away, especially her massage. She says that her daughter probably doesn't even care since she is in high school. Then she says "Mother- teenage Daughter relationships are so chaotic. You know what I mean?" I smile and nod like I do. But really I have no idea. My mom died when I was 13 years old. And I wasn't really that rebellious in my high school years. So that gets me to thinking about how many times do I just agree with a person, when I really don't relate to what's being said.?

You know what I mean?

Monday, January 4, 2010

2010 New Year : New Goals

So I brought this New Year in like a kid. I ended up babysitting for a couple of my friends here on Catalina. It was a night filled with Disney movies, pizza, and chocolate pudding! Lots of fun =) I thought it was a great way to bring in the year with a paying gig. So no complaints from me. I found that I really enjoy kids and that I look forward to raising my own someday. Natural birth or adoption I really don't care as long as I can be a Mom one day. So I made sure to look over my 2009 Goals before I wrote out my 2010 Goals and I made sure that this year I was more detailed oriented with them. Last year had its ups and downs, but its behind me now. I'm focusing on my present and working towards a better future for myself. One of my favorite movies I discovered last year is "The Women". I enjoyed that it was an all woman cast and the message it conveyed to its viewers. I've watched it quite a few times and every time I do, I come away with a new lesson. Last night I was reminded to think about myself first. What about me? That was the question posed and I know its not selfish to ask this to myself anymore. A couple years ago I would of thought, wow thats a selfish question. But I finally understand that if I don't take care of myself, how can I ever really take care of anyone else? Also how can I empower others if I'm not empowered myself. So this year I plan to live the life I dream and be the person I want to be.