You know what I mean?

Do you ever get asked that question?

"You know what I mean?"

I feel like that's a common question I'm asked during massage sessions. It usually has nothing to do with the persons body or the massage. Majority of the time its something personal that they're assuming I can relate too.

My first massage client of the day was an older woman, she was talking on the phone with her daughter as I waited for her to get on my table. When we started she starts to tell me how guilty she's feeling because her teenage daughter is at home sick while she is here on the island on a mini vacation. I tell her that I'm sure her daughter would want her to enjoy her time away, especially her massage. She says that her daughter probably doesn't even care since she is in high school. Then she says "Mother- teenage Daughter relationships are so chaotic. You know what I mean?" I smile and nod like I do. But really I have no idea. My mom died when I was 13 years old. And I wasn't really that rebellious in my high school years. So that gets me to thinking about how many times do I just agree with a person, when I really don't relate to what's being said.?

You know what I mean?

2010 New Year : New Goals

So I brought this New Year in like a kid. I ended up babysitting for a couple of my friends here on Catalina. It was a night filled with Disney movies, pizza, and chocolate pudding! Lots of fun =) I thought it was a great way to bring in the year with a paying gig. So no complaints from me. I found that I really enjoy kids and that I look forward to raising my own someday. Natural birth or adoption I really don't care as long as I can be a Mom one day. So I made sure to look over my 2009 Goals before I wrote out my 2010 Goals and I made sure that this year I was more detailed oriented with them. Last year had its ups and downs, but its behind me now. I'm focusing on my present and working towards a better future for myself. One of my favorite movies I discovered last year is "The Women". I enjoyed that it was an all woman cast and the message it conveyed to its viewers. I've watched it quite a few times and every time I do, I come away with a new lesson. Last night I was reminded to think about myself first. What about me? That was the question posed and I know its not selfish to ask this to myself anymore. A couple years ago I would of thought, wow thats a selfish question. But I finally understand that if I don't take care of myself, how can I ever really take care of anyone else? Also how can I empower others if I'm not empowered myself. So this year I plan to live the life I dream and be the person I want to be.

Coming Home

After a long stint on the Island, I finally came home to celebrate the Halloween weekend with my family. I love being home with Phoenix and Lylah, their presence is so healing to my lonely heart. I'm filled with such happiness when I come home to discuss life with Hagoth and Sarah and have playtime with the kids. It brings me to a grounded feeling of love and strengthens my ability to keep moving forward with my dreams. I consider myself blessed in so many ways. I'm living my passion of Massage Work, my mind is challenged with work and also with planning Morgan's upcoming wedding festivities, and I'm growing in ways that are new to me. I'm experiencing the journey and enjoying every single step of the path I've chosen. I'm so thankful for the gift and power of Love. It's eternal and true.

Keeping Up

Geez time flies and I'm lacking on my updates. Much has happened as it always does. I'm currently living out on Catalina Island working as a massage therapist. What started as a summer gig has turned into an opportunity of strengthening my skills and sticking it out in one place. Yes, I've been a rolling stone for a long time and I'm ready to settle down in some ways. My New Years Resolution was to get out of debt this year. Well I finally started the process of doing so and I feel great about it. It's such a burden to know that my credit is crap. But now I'm making things right. I still love Long Beach and consider that my home. I miss Phoenix and Lylah so much, and I miss hanging out with the family. It'll all work out though. I'm working hard here to pay them bills and also to focus on myself. I love the workout classes they offer here on island and I also enjoy being a pescatarian. I've never felt better about myself. I miss my girlfriend Nikki. We actually broke up a couple months ago. We still remain close and now she stays in Utah. I do love her very much and one day when the time is right, I plan on being together again. Life is full of so many paths to follow. I'm happy on the path I am on now. Self discovery is never ending and wonderful. I wish nothing but the best for family and friends.

July & August 2009

So here's what I've missed writing about...there's more to catch up on. 

Toured the East Coast with Vayden

Morgan & JJ get Engaged!

I'm her Official M.O.H (Maid of Honor)

Doing massage on Catalina Island

Rocked out with The Band in Germany!

its been too long

i haven't posted for ages. so here i am up at 2 am in the morning with nothing much to say...life is good. i'm alive. i love my family and friends. i feel very blessed to live in this time and only wish the best for others, even those who have offended me. forgive and forget. i do believe that! =)

Graduation Season

So far I've attended a total of 3 graduations this year. 1 jr. high and 2 high school grads. I always find myself thinking about my own graduations and how long ago they were! It's a lot of fun being with family and cheering on your graduate, then afterwards ambushing the grad with leis. At the end of the year I should be in Hawaii for Miss Ui's grad, I'm excited for that! =) Yesterday I was at Shane's High school graduation in Oceanside. The graduation was held at the beach, which I thought was a beautiful backdrop. It was way crowded, but what grad isn't? Graduations make me want to go back to school...maybe I will! =)