What I want
I cannot say
My beliefs
I hide away
Holding back
I scream inside
I open up
And out spill lies
To cover up
The mess I've made
Because what I want
I cannot say...
I wrote this poem back in 2008 after I had fully come out to my family that I was gay. It was one of the hardest things I've had to do in life. But its definitely been the best thing I've done for myself. At times I wish being who I am was easier. There was a time I thought perhaps I could be bi or that being a lesbian was just a phase. But the truth is this, I Love the presence, the smell, the taste, the touch, the companionship and understanding of a Woman. Nikki is the only person in the world that I want to share the rest of my life with. I love her in all ways possible and we're not even an item anymore. Now that I know what I want in my life and I'm no longer afraid to say it.
What I Want
Is to be Loved
For Who I Am
To be Thought of
To Live a Life
Filled with Laughter
To Pursue My Happily Ever After
I Am Your Daughter
Sister, Family, Friend
So Please do not let My Happiness
Be Our End
Love is Love
I know this True
Because No Matter What Happens
I Still Love You
1 comment:
Thanks for sharing your poetry, babe. I love to read it. Even though things didn't work with Nikki, I know you'll find someone else to enjoy completely, in time. I am so proud of you for doing the very difficult thing, the thing that most people will never face...telling the truth, putting yourself out there, truly. Let the chips fall where they may was your attitude and I'm proud of who you are.
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